so much to say, no time to speak

my heart wants to write, but i feel so weak.

floatin' up in the clouds, lookin' for those gates

but everywhere i look, i'm fallin' down on my face

to a place where i started, long ago

writin' up a storm, always lookin' fo

summo' words, jus' to show

 my thoughts in motion like water flow.

i told myself i wasnt that guy
who'd eva wanna make a sweet girl cry.
i told myself i'm not that guy
who goes out wit a girl, to spend 3 hrs in the sky.
jus to see her fo a second n call her mine

she's so distant, it hurts so deep
yet i smile cuz i noe she makes me complete.
seein' pictures or hearin her voice aint the same to me
as brushin her hair or holdin her close, so gracefully.

i noe in my heart, she's my girl
but everytime you disappear, my world's a blurr.
suddenly feeling like you were never there
a dream so quick, life aint ever fair.
and yet my soul feels void wittout her presence near
a joy broken if she has to shed a tear
only because she misses the one
who spent weeks by her side, drivin into the sun
tis a journey well worth takin' all the pain
cuz someday it'll be happyness we'd gain
wit so much goin on, no time to stop
time flies by and the moments never caught..

but when you's back, life will be sane
we could hit up corner bakery and have the world to claim.
bliss is wha it be if u were here already
and even if u aint, imma wait n call u jus' bein late.

one morning you tried to clarify wha's true
and i guess u got me speechless; props to you.
u tol me in all honesty which made it feel real
that this aint just a fantasy or a done deal.
tis something i've been waiting for a really long time
and jus like you's said, i'm happy u's mine.

tis only gonna get worse before it gets better
and as the days continue, He's bringin the winter weather.
this distance is far but i guess tis worth
all the time in the world, a few deaths and baby births.

lyrics are spoken but too fast to notice
songs bein sung connected only by a chorus
'who am i to say' anything else,
cuz,
you could 'color me blue i'm lost in you' aint got nun to loose..
but,

the world aint givin me what i want today.
yesterday's gone and tomorrow doesn't look liek tis gon' stay.
dunno what it is but these words aint bein expressed
exactly how i feel, and maybe tha's the test.

long distance aint something i ever hoped for.
tis a curse that aint rehearsed, jus some torture.
it makes you go wit the flow, fo the moment
till chaos fills the room n everyone turns belligerent.
1500 miles away, not enough to walk
but driveable no dout due time, wit a tendency to talk.
and possibly realize that the hours and months
are too long for days, and just to be blunt
i guess i gotta say the farther away
the harder it be, yet tis the price to pay.
when u noe tis worth the distance, time, and effort
to see that person standin by a broken record
only because, their presence aint close enough to know
it makes the world fall, like life aint worf livin fo...

although
you make me whole
let me be told that without you..
i cant be bold
cuz my heart unfolds
in this bittersweet cold
with you.

SHE...makes my heart melt.
she doesn't try at all to prove her cards bein' dealt.
she believes that i'm krahzi, yet still worf mo'
than a few dollas flown onto the flo'
fo the po'...gettin lo.. damn this rhymes a lil slow...

SHE keeps me in line wit reality
be it known that the east koast has the best fo me.
she prolly doesn't noe it yet wholeheartedly
that this foo righ hurr, would cross mountains n the seas
jus' to be
in the presence of she.

and at the end of the day after all's said n done
they meet fo sunset, before a coffee run.
this grl's caught em' off guard bein' quick
thinkin that she's everythin, n just the right fit.
no one truly knows wha i mean in my flow
but this one goes out to juliet, jus' fo her to noe
her man's out 24/7, always on the go
busy as eva, jus to make sum doe...

SHE is someone tha's gonna be
his whole new world, sum ol' g frm philly.
when the times set, ppl wud prolly figure out
this grls' ma juliet, ma wuhda inna drought..
n tha's wha she, to me, be about.

no one cares bout the diamond ring,

tis the lil things

that count, righ?

a second to blink wha wudda happend to be
if i ran far away, wud u chase after me?
if i lived all my days, oh so happily
then wha' wud happn if i cudn' set myself free?

i can't believe the feelings that i feel deep within
its crawlin' thru my body, internal sufferin'
ain' nuffin i cant handle but its too much to hold
n wen i ask him to help me, ain' like he's handin out gold
...but let it b told
i'm happy where i be. i'm happy wit who i be.
i'm happy that i got to noe allllll of thee, even if things b krahzi.

n yes, i havnt lived too long
but i've lived long enough, to sing my songs
freestylin' words jus to b heard by few
i'll be happy, if life jus' brings me u.

but who knew wha could be in the next few years
i'm skurd, but i ain' tellin nobody my fears.
ain' got none to spare but the Lord himself
jus' wanna b apart of wha' worf, that n wealth.
a streetrat gotta make his livin' somehow
n it if isn't tomorrow, then i gotta work on now.

but without people in ur life to tell u what it do
u prolly get it poppin, but get lost in the glue
there's only the tru who'd want to noe wha's new
who wanna, lock me up, n put me on def row too.
i wudn' mind, i's sall good
i'm jus wishin that i could one day be...re-newed.

and when its found, my pursuit of happiness
imma ''possibly'' say that everything will be bliss.
till then tho, imma live in my world
n jus' be here, waitin' fo 'that girl'
who'd walk into my life...n set things straight
who i b, sajis if needed, n not sumphillynikka's fantasy
set in stone by reality if 'crazy' still works out to be...
jus' me.